We are walking through the walls And ignoring all the phone calls Because they're probably from a robot Incapable of any complex thought The world's round, our eyes are rounder After four years I finally found her and She hangs with a bunch of dicks I'm so careless with my stones and sticks This guitar's my personal morphine I enjoy it when I drink caffeine Now that I'm coming down, though This song is musical Drano Put in effort, they'll hold the door But you won't get far without a whore Or maybe you should become a whore too Because everybody else is just like you I'm so sorry if I make you sad But this life can make you feel so bad So I waste it laying in the pines In the needles and the parking fines Maybe my eggs ain't supposed to hatch Maybe my brain is a double eyepatch Let the dogs chew off my dead skin My best friend is moving to Camden And I'll never see him again I'll count the DMs that I send him I hope he finds a nice place to stay I just want him to be okay I make a hundred dollars in a week This fucking paycheck is an antique Now I know why stomachs don't get full Getting fucked in conceivable hole You know I can't commit to suicide But I wouldn't mind not being alive And I don't know if I'm gay or straight or bi But sex is gross so I won't try We take vending machine Prozac That ensures we always come back Once I was too young to get acne Well now I'm too young to be happy Fuck you, man, I'm a person too I deserve the same treatment you do And I know what it's like to lose Because I lost all respect for you You know I'm tired of being lonely I'm just a kid in the name only And I'm scared of responsibility Life is an exercise in futility For once I want to love someone And I know this shit is overdone But I want to feel them love me too And I want someone who looks like you And I want their hand to hold my hand We don't even have to love same bands I want someone I give attention And feel some joy in three dimensions But my head feels like a fucking brick In the wall of someone else's chick tract We need love like any other child We're not children we have been defiled No No no no no no Please don't leave me alone Please don't leave me alone I don't wanna be alone no more Please don't leave me alone

I was born in a people factory Coming off of the hot seat Yeah You say you're having a hard time Well you should meet some friends of mine Yeah I've got freedom From the pressure And yet I still feel The pressure I get away With anything Because no one Fucking cares Nobody cares about me at all Nobody cares about me at all Drinking stagnant water When it's getting hotter Cause we've gotta hydrate I'm not a fucking ingrate Nobody cares about me at all Nobody cares about me at all

Our outer space is strange and new and full of thin air We hate ourselves but we will claim that we do not care Chop up our bodies but our limbs will always grow back So many ways to see their minds are getting off track We'll never know the pleasures that the old have used up They could've had the best so why'd they have to choose us We kill ourselves so much it starts to become funny They call us spoiled but we have no spending money My broken bones have left me still and cold and so blue Only use ten percent but I don't think that is true I took myself apart but nothing there was broken I held my stomach out before I had awoken We sailed around the world but no one did it gladly Found lots of people but we never found them happy This lonesome carousel is spinning counter-clockwise We rode forever so we know that nothing here dies No, nothing ever dies

From now on I'll be thinking I'll worry about the choice I'm making Yeah From now on I will slow down Don't you fret about the world speed limit here It's alright, it's alright, it's alright From now on I'm not meant to be I'm not meant to be

Something is wrong with the world that I live in It might not be real and I could just be having a Dreams are a burden that I carry through the choices that aren't choices at all And society is hollow and stupid and it barely functions without all the screaming and the bickering I hate being around people But I'm lonely without them God damn it why is it so complicated So complicated in everything We can buy another place to claim for the aliens Sent from their mother ship to steal all the resources From the people they hate, those god damn people With thick greasy fingers and heads full of jell-o It's time to wake up, up, up It's time to wake up, up, up

You can try to be friendly You can try to be clear But things will never get better As long as you aren't here It starts out when you watch others Your friends have stopped being sad They found the people that love them The only friends that you had I Hate My Self You Hate Your Self Soon it creeps up inside you It starts to fuck with your head You feel like you're full of poison You can't get out of your bed You're desperate for some contact Though you've got friends all around You've been locked up in confinement Forget how to hear a sound I Love Your Self You Hate My Self

Under ice cold shooting stars 1 AM, getting ready to go Silently, I will slip out In the cold, laying out in the snow Is it bad if I give up Only one chance, one way to escape Sorry for all the problems Crooked mind, got it bent out of shape And maybe soon I will join them I will slip through the air and explore But what if things get better I have to wonder who I'm doing this for But then it comes back to me again My heart is slow but my brain is fast It's sitting there and it watches End it first though I came in last But in my head and in my spine I wake up now and I feel fine I try to stand but I'm in too deep I'm held down by the arms of sleep It hurts so much, I'm eaten alive By what is real and what's inside It makes me hate the world I love The world I hate way up above And all my friends are there for me But my head splits when they can't be And I just lost someone great They went too early and came too late Forgive me master, whom I have defied Our glory days are too glorified I am so tired and so afraid I cut my hair but long it stayed There's a quarantine it's just for me With a plastic curtain so I can't see But I can hear the words they say The doctors want to take me away It's so overwhelming, I didn't mean it I like to stand where the losers sit I'm alienated by everybody It is nothing, I'm its understudy It makes me hate my god damn body I hate my fingers they move so oddly I hate my hair, always too long I hate my mouth it can't sing songs I hate my tooth with the yellow stain I hate my spine, it eats my brain I hate my feet they're way too slow I hate my eyes they never grow I hate my stomach it hates me too I hate my emotions and what they do I hate my face it's at a loss It represents me in your thoughts But there's a thing that pounces when I'm weak It likes to attack and it likes to sneak It controls my emotions and my sums I swallow pennies and pay with crumbs It keeps me still in a lathargic state But I can break free, it's not too late I run away, but it gives chase The cold rose up and it has no face My side is split and I'm out of breath I'm running from the ice of death I have a place but I don't know where In the corners of eyes it still sits there And I cannot breathe this air no more It's obliteration, it's mental gore And I can scream and I can cry But no one knows exactly why But I see a light, it's fading out A distant star without a doubt I might be safe but I can't be sure I take a pill and lock the door I have gone deaf, I lost my mind It's always waiting right behind It watches me, it waits to strike Knowing what I hate and like And I break down and I cry for help But no one can hear what I felt It keeps me cold and in my place It wears a smile but has it has no face

It's hard to find any motivation at all And it's hard to stand when you just want to fall And it's hard to sleep with someone watching you And it's hard to survive when you don't know what to do I've been running for a thousand years but now I'm out of breath I've been running for a thousand years but now I feel like death Swimming in a pool of embalming liquid I've trapped myself inside a blank white room Surrounded by skin that I stole from the womb The world is out of sink with the sun and moon You try to fall asleep but the sky is way too blue But the world says "Hey, man" What am I running from? What am I running from? What am I running from? Now I don't have to run What am I running from? What am I running from? What am I running from? Maybe I don't have to run What Please let me sleep (Let me out) Please let me sleep (Let me out) Please let me sleep (Let me out) I need to sleep (Let me out)

Drifting along Sing a song That is quiet but still fun Stare at the sun When you're done Look at the brightside, now you're blind Left behind Now I find You're abusive, I can't stay Need today Anyway You are perfect, not okay Oh oh oh Your art is beautiful Your mind is beautiful You are so beautiful And I don't care about real life no more Life of delays Seven days Love is nothing, love is nothing So we sing On our strings We dance like puppets on a stage Minimum wage I can try my best but I will not succeed You take the lead All I need We will consume our rivals with our budding friendship and our love Your eyes are beautiful And I love your sense of humor And you hate the jokes that I don't tell And I don't know what to say when I Feel like this can't go away but Over time the lust won't come I'll feel too much it'll make me numb When the feelings are too strong They can never last that long And I woke up and all the feelings were gone

Everyone is going home and locking up their doors The children burn the churches down and rob convenience stores The system breaks, we shave our heads and go and start some wars We shoot our friends and hide their heads inside our dresser drawers It's alright because it doesn't matter anymore By now the world is spinning backwards, roles have been erased We're sucking up the little crumbs and drowning in the paste The music drags but everybody keeps on dancing anyway We'll dance all night in peace and joy until the darkness turns to day But until that moment comes I'd like to have a little fun I'll drink and laugh and talk and think about the things that I have done We'll set aside the boundaries placed upon us by the old There will be no pressure to do anything that we are told The feelings that we have are raw and real and never fake We will want what we will give and we'll need what we will take Maybe I'll regret my actions later if I get a chance But until the churches burn, man, I think I'd rather dance Home We need to We need to We need to go back

Well when I'm mad I like to shout And carry on and raise some doubt I don't what it's all about You're gonna have to drag me out Kickin' and screamin' Kickin' and screamin'

Sometimes I wish I was a car You could drive me far Sometimes I wish I was a stillborn I'd never even exist I am tethered to this body Wish I could ditch it in the woods Dreams are my burden I will carry them my whole life I'll always love them But they will rot in my hands There's nothing I can do now I could be doing something else

I stopped at your place while I was walking home one day You wanted me to stay And I said "Okay" You took me to your bedroom It was very sloppy, just like mine You showed me all your favorite records We listened to your records And now they are my favorites too Just because they remind me of you You love when I love when you are around Your folks were out of town Our lives were upside down We needed something that the other's got In conciousness or thought The glances that we caught We stayed up all night talking We were staring at your room's white ceiling We talked about each other's problems Only cared about the other's problems But if I try to lean against you I will surely fall Just because there's nothing there to hold me up at all Now of course this didn't happen instantly It took three years to see That you're in love with me I hope everything in your life is fine Our lives start to combine Your hand is holding mine I need love I need love I need love I need love I need love I need love I need love

Something's gotta change Something's gotta change Nothing's gonna change Nothing's gonna change Gotta go to bed Gotta got to bed Gotta get to sleep Gotta rest my head Nothing is real Nothing is real Everything is fake Everything is fake Tea and sugar sand Tea and sugar sand Throw a little dirt On the concrete Pine barren lives Pine barren lives Lonely and the same Lonely and the same It kills you real slow Kills you real slow Soon you're running for the beach Running for the beach Glad I'm not alive Glad I'm not alive I don't know what to do with you at all The weight Of the world Crushing My head Wait For the bus I'll sleep with The dead Oh

(Part 2) I don't wanna be sad anymore But it's to late to change what I'm here for We're tired of living these lives Throw in the towel, I've failed three times I can't keep on running from this shit But when I try to stop my legs won't quit I think they know better than you or I My legs can move but my eyes can cry And maybe everything will cease to exist After my conciousness has been dismissed To us reality shouldn't be real Makes us feel horrible, but we can deal And maybe someday I will lose my head I'll never have to get out of bed You hid my head in your dresser drawer Don't have to talk when there's a lock on the door After I'm gone the world will be okay (Part 3) These days I don't know who I am no more It makes me wonder what I'm still living for I've been growing further from those I call friends The only things I'm eating is fingers and pens And it doesn't matter what you can say I'll always feel hatred the anyway You can say that isn't true to my ear I can respond but my brain will not hear Doctor says I'm paranoid and he's right No way to know what they do out of sight Brain rejects reality and whatever I can see I sound so crazy but they're laughing at me And I've never known how it feels to have friends I'm not alone but I am in my head That god damn head I wish I didn't have one I wish I was a bird that can fly away when he gets bored Look at the quiet lives Look at the quiet lives