A universe where there's a version of me He's got some talent and a high self-esteem The kind of person that his friends wanna see When he's around they never want him to leave I'm gonna overdose on Vitamin D Catch lightning bugs inside an old TV I'm happy that the sun came back for me Now that it's finished sucking up the sea 'Cause if I stay inside then I will rot Talking to the walls or Cleverbot And I know that I don't care a lot About the smiles I don't wear a lot See myself falling back on to the ground Look at the night sky, waiting for the sound Of people driving circles round and round I'll be their king but I won't be crowned Hey hey, I'm a million miles from my brain I'm alone, watching stars in the morning rain Hey hey, I'm a million miles from my brain Watching stars in the morning rain My social life's a game of make believe I'm not a ghost and you can talk to me The only person that you'll ever see I wanna know someone that intimately That's unrealistic so I chew a pen Delete the messages I'd never send I got no social skills but I got friends Feels like they hate me so I play pretend I feel so lonely but I'm never alone The whole time I had the volume off on my phone And I've accepted that I'll never really grow up I failed my life because I didn't fucking show up It's really cool how much I hate my face If I try hard I'll reach outer space Feeling cool, let the sweat flow off your heart Getting paid, pushing money through Walmart Hey hey, I'm a million miles from my brain All alone, watching stars in the morning rain Hey hey, I'm a million miles from my brain Watching stars in the morning rain

On sunny days, the heat, the haze always Keeps me alive I try to die so much Living alone with humans I don't know Bury my face inside of a snow cone Under my bed, I lose my head softly Air like the ice it feels so nice on me Wish I could hold the hand of another But then we'd break the hands off each other I walk the trails, they're garbage pails rotting Bodies of mice, the ticks are nice to me I met with death, he asked me to play chess 'Cause I'm alone, he seems okay I guess Snakes in the grass they'll beat your ass They broke your heart, they'd break your glass Better avoid their evil eyes If you catch their gaze then all that dignity dies Lemonade That I made Still wanna drink your peach iced tea Loud sirens sound from all around our house We go outside it's 105 degrees We feel ashamed, the sweat, the stains on us Neighbors don't wait, evacuate from us Turn on the news to lose the blues, screaming The sun is done it's come for blood, scorching Drive into town, chaos abound, we threw Bricks at the glass, we searched the shelves for the broken Past we lost At no cost Our souls were fuzzy and so soft People riot all day long I stay home and write this song 'Cause I feel fine I feel okay This would've happened anyway and- Seems like the world is ending soon Ruined the perfect afternoon These days are long, they never end Sun stays still, the next one starts again Oh, it's nice, it's nice I know that it's not gonna last But I don't care if it goes fast Oh, the streets, the streets Have gone quiet once again It's just me I'll recall them when it hurts to be afraid There's no shame here No untamed fear Put it on me for a little while You'll put it on me for a little while Just put it on me for a little while Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh I'll fly a kite, I'll get a bite to eat The summer heat feels incomplete to me Bug spray to keep the bugs away all day Blood that I let just to forget about The end of the world, the end of the sadness The end of the art, the artist, their madness I'll celebrate the hatred that's dying We'll never move until you stop lying I do the drugs, lay on the rug, screaming Yearn for the day I used to be gleaming I'll die alone, afraid, and I'm souless Embrace the shade and the poetic coldness It never ends My brain hates me There are no friends Makes me lonely Let the sun Suck up The sea Watch the sun Suck up The sea Let the sun Suck up The sea Watch the sun Suck up The sea Let the sun Suck up The sea Watch the sun Suck up The sea Let the sun Suck up The sea Watch the sun Suck up The sea Let the sun Let the sun Let the sun Let the sun Let the sun Let the sun

I can look through my window at the parking lot I can see through my window when the sun comes up See the birds and the children playing in the road I was once one of them, or so I've been told We don't have to be just like all the rest We can be the very best Or we'll smoke weed and we'll listen to Wilco We'll listen to Wilco I can see through my window at the orange sky Turns from blue Power Aid into an orange dye I can break through my window living in the past I'll spend the next day looking through the same old glass We don't have to become what we have been If we live and never sin Then Jesus died for nothing at all

Unpaved road in the morning light Woke up, told the sun "Goodnight" Dirty roads make dirty shoes I walk inside, I get the blues Clean it up and walk back out Find out what life's all about Tell the world just how I feel Is this a dream or is this real? I'm the king of these dirt roads They help my manic episodes Watch me run, now watch me walk We sit down and start to talk I've been sad, I was naive Found beauty in the summer breeze Go outside to have a breath Air tastes good but it smells like death, well Cedar Creek water helps me think I try to swim but I just sink Fish me out in a block of ice Then warm me up now I feel real nice Still so warm, still so fresh I'm soaked in blood and bound in flesh We spent a day in Wildwood They stayed away like I knew they would Back outside it's a hundred degrees Sweet apple bite in the shade of a tree Breathed in sighs, so damp and deep I layed down in the dirt, fell back to sleep Sunday drive beneath my soul Passion is friction between us all We left our bikes out on the lawn Don't bother now, I'm sure they're gone

Boring conversation Inside jokes erasing All of our emotions and thoughts Force a crooked smile Hold it for a little while Stomach's getting tied up in knots Threw away my cell phone I just wanna be alone But deep inside I am just afraid I'll go where the ghost haunts Anything the group wants Just to make them think I'm okay Thought I was an ocean Thought I was an ocean Thought I was an ocean Thought I was an ocean Where did the sun go? Fell from my window To the path that I used to walk Hiding in the washroom Ticket's gonna cost you Ticket to some meaningful talk Listening to Weezer He's desperate to please her No blues, just reds and greens Wish I could be followed But all the pride's been swallowed I wonder what that means I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm first I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm first I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm first I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm thirsty, I'm first Thought I was an ocean Thought I was an ocean Thought I was an ocean Thought I was an ocean Well I'll be the creek of the dirt and diseases And you'll be the sea of old locks without keys We'll float in a boat and we'll do as we please But your harsh, harsh winds will blow away my cool breeze And I'll be ice water, in a boring glass And you'll be the drinker, please try to make me last And I'll be a pole that's never getting cast And you'll be the sail that never had a mast I can't stand to hear you complain That your crazy lover drives you insane You've never fucking been alone The pressure never broke your bones And your corpse lays in the ditch at night You've got no mouth to say "Alright" So no you don't know how it feels To be afraid that they'll reveal The swimming pool you found us in The chlorine in our sinuses The way our glassy eyes rolled back Our skin felt like a marshal stack Our corpses were pale with thick white bumps Our tears filled up the chlorine pumps They scraped our sadness of the sides Then they burned us up, they said no goodbyes

Regular chicken's been a-commin' on home With big brown bodies, gonna loosen their bones The devil gave chase and the chicken gave way You know what they did but you ain't gonna say "Okay" You do it anyway Along came a robot wishin' to be wed Ain't got a single thought inside of its head, it said "Too bad, too bad, too bad." Too bad, too bad, too bad Well I had a long night in the Temple Of Doom Stinkin' from the smell of a super cheap perfume And why can't you? Why can't you? Why can't you? Why can't you? why can't you? Why can't you? Regular chicken said "I feel real fine." "If I can't see a doctor then I'll lose my mind." It drowned in the smokestack under my toungue With a little bit of anger and a song not sung What's wrong? You know it wouldn't last that long Well along came Matt and he was sweating like a dog He said "I lost my shoes in the old peat bog" I said "Too bad, too bad, too bad." Too bad, too bad, too bad A man sat down he said "Do you ever know?" But I didn't have to think before my lips said "No" He said "Why can't you? Why can't you? Why can't you?" Why can't you? Why can't you? Why can't you?

We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming in the ocean at night We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming in the ocean at night We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing in the ocean at night We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing in the ocean at night We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing, sailing, sailing, sail We're going sailing in the ocean at night We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming in the ocean at night We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming in the ocean at night We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming, swimming, swimming, swim We're going swimming in the ocean at night We're going fishing, fishing, fishing, fish We're going fishing, fishing, fishing, fish We're going fishing, fishing, fishing, fish We're going fishing in the ocean at night We're going fishing, fishing, fishing, fish We're going fishing, fishing, fishing, fish We're going fishing, fishing, fishing, fish We're going fishing in the ocean at night

People say that these songs are a waste of my time You'll see People say there is something wrong with my mind You'll see Someday you're gonna call me a fucking artist You'll see Someday I'm gonna make ten bucks an hour You'll see People love to make fun of other people You'll see People want to define how to be a good person You'll see People praise the people who try to be different You'll see Just until the "different" becomes the "normal" We're all different Clean guitars and drum-sets were once special You'll see Someday I'm gonna save myself with my music You'll see

At the pity party I was a wallflower Everyone looked sweet I looked cold and sour You saw me sitting On the mahogany stool And you said to yourself "I'd better dance with this fool" If you wanna hurt me I'll let you cut to the bone Because I'd rather sleep in agony Than sleep alone Please make me feel I deserve all your rage You can hit me with a hammer I'll just sit still in my cage You don't have to change because I'm gonna change for you I didn't mean to speak, it's really all that I can do And I swear that I'm fine, my foot is stuck in the grave It's not your fault this time, it's the fucking heatwave Because the sun's drinking water And it's not putting it back While all the fish are frying The dirt is dusty and it's cracked It's pulling it up to the sky It's flooding straight out of the sea It drains the water left inside of all that's left of me And after my flesh is cooked you come and pick at the meat I'm just another morsel, another bite for you to eat And then you pick up the bones and you break them up in your hand Until there's nothing left but powder, then you cut it with the sand You take the cells that are left, they're dying of a disease You make them form a new body and then you teach them how to breathe That's when you set them on fire and watch them all writhe around You throw them into the ocean, they hear you laugh as they drown I live just to suffer, so please mutilate me Destroy all my emotions, abuse and berate me Do I need attention? Do I need to fall? I guess pain feels much better than nothing at all And I wish I didn't see that this feeling is so crazy But this sunshine is killing me, so please don't leave me Please don't leave me. Please don't leave me. Please.

A boy who trades real things for dreams He hangs out with vending machines Lives off the feelings they dispence Now his mind has a bunch of dents He ripped his shorts on a chain link fence But he's tired of the fake love With hollow hugs and two rubber gloves He says the best part of drying out Is that he's out of things to talk about There's children out there crying, people dying Hows and whys It's gonna be alright We love you Alright We love you There ain't no connection here In lonely, inaudible cheers It's all smiles and inside jokes He gets so tired of all those Empty boxes with pretty bows And he's scared to leave anyone Real solutions to his real problems He's fed up with the white lies Brown eyes and the baby blue skies And all his hope just fucking dies He's got no damn ambition, going fishing When he breathes in sighs It's gonna be alright We love you It's gonna be alright We love you I ain't got No war No gun No sun I ain't got No war No gun No one Oh, nobody said life would be easy Oh, nobody said life would be good Oh no If they told you that each day would be better than the last one Then they were wrong And if they told you that grown-ups are happy when they smile at you, well They were wrong Oh so wrong

In rapid succession They kneel in confession And list all the sins The ones the priest never mentioned They ask good questions About the aggression That god carries with them His strongest obsession "Are we human beings?" "Why do we have feelings?" These questions just come From the emotions they're stealing So I'll crank up the AC And I'll get down on one knee And I'll sleep with the door locked And let them leave without me They sleep in the summer haze For hours on sunny days 'Cause everyone's tired And the coffee's been drained And that's how it always goes Your eyes never really close You'd think they can catch up But god only knows Art without expression Leaves no good impression So play Animal Crossing 'Cause it helps with depression Got nothing else to do And no one to turn to Must be nice to have someone Who's happy to see you Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure Insecure

Oh Well the sun's so hot, it can only get colder Oh Your skin still wrinkles 'cause you think you're gettin' older Oh If I had love left I would kill myself to hold her Oh The solution sitting on my broken shoulder (Wish I had someone Who would stop and wait When my shoe's untied, and they're runnin' late) I've got no one And yet I keep on talking I've got no one Just the trails I've been walking (I've been here for seventeen years But there's still no voice to whisper in my ears "Hey, you're okay.") I've got no one, I've got no one I've got no one, I've got no one (So I go to bed early And I sleep in late Sun is all around me by a quarter to 8) (People feel my pulse And they treat me like I died Even though I scream out "Hey, I'm still alive") Oh I've got hands so clean but my mind is dirt (Wanna share warmth and I wanna share fear) Oh People don't like pain but they keep on getting hurt (Now I write my name down so they know I'm here) Oh When all the people keep their hearts in a jar on the top shelf (When I feel so bad and I feel so blue) Oh I wanna get the gooey feelings, wanna put them in myself (Wanna another body near me, says "I really love you") I understand Under the circumstances (And I carve your words deep inside of myself) That I blew all My seven billion chances ("I still got my thoughts and I got my health") They talk a lot Until the spit has all dried up (I resent the pretty couples who let all their little troubles) If I was wet Then they would cup their hands and line up (Waste the only think I nee-) And their passion sounds like:

I want to sleep now I am so tired Sunshine and flowers Watching the clouds move Ocean of warmth, please bathe me in light Lost in the white noise Seagulls on fire Stray dogs are thirsty They tell me to let them drown Listen, the wall talks It tells me about myself Wall argues with the ceiling but not the floor It loves the attention of being the loudest wall Moving my fingers back and forth I ignore the things that can't be ignored Tell me what's happening, I can't tell anymore It's so overwhelming so I delete myself from reality I cannot change these things I'm scared to be scared again The ocean will take us back The land and the bones of us all I feel it climbing, trying to find you Sadly, you'll find me wrapped around your leg so tight and Feel the waves' waves wash on the lighthouse

Sun is rising up again And bleeding light from far behind Into the place nobody can see anything I guess I'm lucky to be bored I Rolled the dice and took my turn the Pieces never moved, they just looked up at me Sometimes when it's too much I Can count the broken promises That I've made with no intent to break them I am not a robot I'm a Human being with free will I Do what the people tell me so I'm thought about I've been surfing on a wave Of other people's thoughts of me It dictates what I do when I do anything I don't know where I'm going 'cause I choose to do what I don't choose And everyone's a slave to all the other slaves So wake up late and wear nice clothes And cut your hair and live alone but Never say you don't know what you're doing Endless seas of yous and mes I don't know how to live like this Retire all the flags and let the good ideas die Buy a low rent apartment Somewhere in Brooklyn Eat your food from a tin can That your five room mates purchased Get yourself a new fender And a bunch of old records Squeeze your sound through a vacuum 'Till your mother is proud of you Meet your significant other Could be a guy or a girl Go on three dates and love them Leave your jacket at their house Be afraid to make love to them Let them feel so inadequate Then they'll leave you for no one And it's your fault you shithead

I spent my spring break sleeping in the dirt I cut my head off but it didn't hurt It only felt good for a little while though I had no mouth so I couldn't smile, no I threw my money down the wishing well I lost it all, it was a portal to hell And now the devil's dancing on my dreams He never told me what this metaphor means The devil's frugal so I walked away Jump in the ditch to spend the rest of the day I'd stand until I just got shoved Miss being hated 'cause I felt so loved Listen to music that helps me ignore Helps me forget what I am listening for But I don't really mind I think that I'll come to find That the soundtrack's in my brain And I still feel just the same Can't wrap my head around my head They don't tell you 'till you're dead That the bandaid won't stop your bleeding If the blood comes out your bed And in the dirt I slept for seven hours I dreamt of bees that never found the flowers My only wish was for the day to end So that tomorrow I could do it again I didn't talk to any of my friends There's just no point if nothing ever ends Hum of the AC lulls me back to rest Waste my life going where you think it's best for me We run from our fathers We run from our mothers We run from our feelings We run from each other We run from our spirits We run from our health We run from opinions We run from ourselves I wasted all my time Writing words that forgot to rhyme It doesn't matter if they're not okay Nobody's listening anyway I've got no reason to stay here I let my sunshine disappear Now it's all euphoric waves And rewards at the barren raves

Under the boardwalk We lay there and we talk About all the distant features that we dreamed about all day Walk to Island Beach To watch the ranger teach The promising young scholars, wearing out pressed collars, dollar bills Get up and walk now And go look around You never know what you're gonna find when you see clear I'm wide awake now There's nobody here now I think about how I humiliate myself and I feel low I check the time and then I raise my feet, pack up my things, and go I catch a bus I don't ask where it's headed I don't want to know